I found this written in an old book.. maybe written almost two years back.. it’s a stupid one and very amateurish.. still for memories sake.. I will post it..


She sat there buttering the already buttered toast, finally placing it on his plate. His hand emerged from behind the newspaper picked up the toast and vanished behind it again, she could hear the ‘crunch’ as he bit into it. He liked his toast just that way put in the toaster with the timer set on ‘two’. For breakfast, he had exactly three toasts one buttered two with marmalade she was making and a mug of coffee made with milk powder mixed just before drinking. The coffee powder-his special brand nothing else sugar exactly one teaspoon. She would keep looking at his car till it turned around the corner, out of sight. Lately she had started taking extra care of his comforts, his breakfasts,his laundry,his towels and bed-sheets. More often than not when he was not home, she found herself curled up on his side of the bed because it had his scent. More often than not she caught a tear escaping her eye on the sly as she watched him leave for office, just like today.

He got into the car, the driver closed the door behind him got in the car and he was on his way to work, he wondered if she still looked at the car from behind till it was out of sight? but did not turn back to look. Every morning they sat at the breakfast table together, she would make breakfast just the way he liked it, the toasts, the coffee. He even suspected her to have been paying careful attention to his laundry, towels and bed sheets. But could not muster the courage to fold the newspaper and look at her, take her hand in his and kiss it like he so wanted to.
More often than not these days he found himself staring at her face as she slept at night, gently touching the bangles she always wore or brushing aside a strand of hair
from her face. More often than not he caught himself stealing glimpses while pretending to be asleep when she came out of the bath. Her hair loosely playing around her neck, her scent filling the room and his senses. More often than not he found himself staring at her pictures in his lap top while going or coming from work just like right now.

They had a love marriage, they started in a one bedroom apartment and had promised to work hard and build themselves their dream home. Back then, they would have breakfast together and she would have to push him out of the house so he doesn’t get late for work. In the evening, he would come home, heap her in his arms kiss her forehead, they would have dinner together talking about the day, make plans for the future. He would kiss her hand and they would sleep in each others arms. Or he would kiss her hand and that would be the beginning of a wonderful sleepless night. Now many of those plans had taken shape, they lived in a wonderful apartment in one of the most expensive ares of the city, the only constant that remained from their past life were the sleepless nights, only they weren’t wonderful anymore. Each lay on his or her side of the bed thinking of the same thing, thinking the other person was asleep, thinking how he missed the other person. Wondering if the other person felt the same. But never knowing, never trying. This had been going on for some time now, their silence had grown into a fragile,insurmountable wall. This went on for some more days.

Then one night something different happened, he came home late as usual, entered the bedroom and found her asleep at his side of the bed, wearing one of his shirts and her shorts, her legs curled together. Normally he would have been upset she spoiled the iron, but he kept his bag on the table, dropped on the floor in front of her. A tear trickled down his eye as he kissed her hand. The familiar long-lost sensation woke her up, she saw him there and all at once, the wall crumbled. Her eyes welled. He hugged her . She was looking at him smiling, not believing he had been there all this while she just had to be on his side. He kissed her forehead, he brushed aside the hair from the nape of her neck, and kissed her…

the night was sleepless, wonderful..all over again !

bas yun hi tumhari yaad aa gayi..
bas yun hi socha ..

ek aarzoo,vo adhuri si nazm puri kar loon..
jo adhi takiyon pe, adhi silavton meh chod di thi
unhi silvaton meh tumhari sanson ki mehek yaad aa gayi..
bhule se baithe the hum… ek dusre ki yaad ko…
ek hi chhat ke neeche.. ghum se gaye the na?
bas yun hi dil ne kaha.. kuch baat toh karoon
toh baton baton mein… tumhari baat yaad aa gayi..