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2014

The Feeling..

On the birthday of my love.. am not with him.. so a small gift.. something for him 🙂

Happy Birthday… ME more:)

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He had always heard of this feeling. People, books, movies, and everybody around him told him how great it was to be in love.

He had never come close to that feeling in his life. Other things had been his priority always. And he would have never experienced the sheer brilliance of this feeling had it not been for her.

She had walked into his life like a dream. Accidentally bumping into each other at the colony ground. The awkwardness made way to conversations and conversations to a friendship so deep that they were surprised how effortlessly they bonded.

He knew that the increase of his heartbeat whenever he saw her was love. The way he caught his breath every time she put her hair aside

Yes. He loved her. Not the flowers and hearts type, but a deeper love. Where his soul called out for her.

He loved how behind this workaholic woman was a crazy girl who had the wackiest ideas about life.

He loved the fact that she created a positive impression on everyone she met.  No matter who it was, she connected with everyone.

She lived life to the fullest and got the best out of each day.

He loved that she was an avid reader. She cried along with the characters of those books and rejoiced at their happiness.

He loved how she was always willing to help anybody.

He loved how she bought out the best in him. Stood by him through the bad times and was the first to hop with joy when he succeeded.

He loved how she made him see the beauty of a sunrise.

How she always picked up bright colors and pulled him out of the monochromatic life he had been living.

Yes, he loved everything about her.

But what he loved most, was the fact that she loved him back…

Come back..

Here I am..Back.. M no regular writer. . I probably had thought that I wouldn’t write for a long time to come..But today I just miss my blog.. I am at the position where too much is happening in my life and a lot of thinking happening in my head..
So m not writing anything here.. just a post.. a picture that probably suits my mood now..

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Another Chance !!

Watching the DDLJ scene station – Main nahi aunga scene.. i think to myself.. What if it wasnt a movie.. what if all this was real..Then in my non-optimistic practical story..Raj wouldn’t have said main nahi aunga.. giving away the secret that he is fallen for Simran.. rather would have made a happy face and congratulated her.. Then there would not be a self realization of being in love song.. bt a sad letting go song.. In my version..simran would have to go back to India and marry that @$#&&# Kuljeet.. n the only people who would live happily ever after would be thier parents..

Uhh… too sad for u???

Ok !!

Lets take it further.. 5 years later.. simran and Kuljeet are divorced and simran is finally free.. She goes to Europe.. coz in her own way.. thats the only place that makes her feel close to Raj.. like he is around..
She sits every night to herself and thinks only if she had said something on the station that day.. probably then ..meri zindagi ka rukh kuch aur hota.. meri zindagi ka dukh kuch aur hota…

Simran had left her 5 difficult years of marriage behind and moved on.. She has started afresh working in a book shop.. always running around with a copy of the book she was reading in the train when she met Raj..

One fine day.. running late for work.. In a hurry to reach the book shop.. unrealising that she s running for the wrong train..  She caught a stranger s hand.. The moment she got in.. the world stopped.. Raj.. a little mature look.. bt still d innocence of his eyes was the same.. Raj on thw other hand still couldnt believe that it was Simran.. he thought he was imagning her, like he had done for past 5 years..speechless.. memories flashed..
Simran.. How have u been.. its been ages.. how is ur husband.. Are you here on a vacation.. Few questions that he could utter.. and a few that stayed in his heart.. Like theh have..all these years..

Still dumbstruck.. Simran smiled.. shaked her head.. and before she could say something.. he said lets sit and talk.. and forgetting all about reaching her book shop.. they sat in a cafe..

Raj’s questions were answered with lot of stories, tears and a proud smile of surviving it all..  every word made him regret the silence of the station day..

Sipping on coffee.. Simran asked about Raj.. Raj moved to Europe for the same reason as Simran.. though he didnt say so.. He hadnt married anyone.. when asked the reason.. He looked at d book in Simran’s hand.. He thought for a while.. He thought of how he had let go of that moment to express his love and regreted it all this time.. he thought of not being able to meet simran ever…and then He looked in her eye..and said khud ko aur us ladki ko ek station pe hi chod aaya tha.. shaadi kahan se karta..
Those words.. the world stoppd..
Simran smiled with tears of joy and Hugged him..
This was it.. The Moment..- where all the lonliness both had lived in for past 5 years vanished.. the moment where all the unsaid-unexpressed love was said without saying anything.. the Moment of Another chance..

So ya.. this wasnt just another take at DDLJ… it is for everyone to know that you might not be as lucky as  Raj & Simran.. So if you have someone in your life who makes you mad and irritates the hell out of you.. bt you still wanna see yourself grow old with that person ..
Someone who you wanna wake up next to for the rest of your life..
Someone who you think is all wrong for you and still all right..
Someone you dont know why you love…
Go say so.. Go say that.. agar tumhari shaadi ho rahi hoti main nahi aata.. go say.. you are my Raj / Simran.. go say.. Be mine and make me yours..coz  there wont be another chance..

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Another Page of a Diary..

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The Perfect Love…. 🙂

Uffff ye baarish

Boondon ke motiyon mein ghul ke ehsaas aaya

Waqt se nikal ke lamha dil ke paas aaya

Chhoo ke guzra tha par dil ko na mehsoos hua

Ab jo dekha toh woh lamha dil ko raas aaya

Yun ki tai kar na paaun re…

Dil ki baat main hawa ke zariye pahunchaaun re

Ya khud hawa pe chal ke aaun re?

Tumse pyaar hai yeh khul ke jinn mein keh paaun re

Lafz woh kahan se laaun re??

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Life, Etc.

The heading. Sitting for past 15 min, that’s all I could write.

Type. Delete. Type something new. Repeat.

I have no food for thought today. I have a blank canvas to paint. All I have is a feeling, to pour my thoughts on this word-sheet and color the canvas in such a way, that it makes someone (read : my bestieeeeee ) Smile.

I look at an old picture today and laugh at how funny I look. Oh Yeah, I still look funny, I know. Bt I looked hilarious in that pic taken some 7 years back. But there is this raw innocence in my eyes, which I kind-da miss today.

I was someone who had seen only the good life. I was a girl who had never loved, never been hurt and never been “that way happy’ either. Today I am past many heartbreaks (mine and others), Many failures and manyyyyyyy happy moments. I have realized that life isn’t always black or white but a constant shade of gray. I have realized that not everyone is meant to stay in your life, so live every moment to the best – Say it all, coz there won’t be another chance. Learnt that when people go, Its best to let Go coz holding on doesn’t really change anything.

But, yes, there will be few, very few, who will stick by you, no matter what. Go tell them that you love them – coz of a reason or otherwise, say it loud to be heard by their heart.

Today as I see it, there are many wrong decisions and a few good ones. But there are none that I regret. Things may have not turned out as I wanted them to be.. but, yeah ! they aren’t that bad either.. They are almost good.

One thing I learnt in my 25 years of {Gorgeous} life, is that Life moves on. Something better comes along, always. Never give up on Hope. It is the second strongest feelings humans have. Be Human , Be super-Hopeful. Let God do his Job, He is, you know, perfect at it.

GOD! This is turning out to be letter to my younger self , no ?? Ewww, I am not that old, yet. I have millions of mistakes to make and thousands of things to be happy about in the future. But Ya, if at all, I do have to say something to ME (7 years back – Me), All I would say is… It’s been good. It’s gonna get better, If not – let Go of whatever doesn’t seem worth your time. No I don’t mean my exams in these, failures counted, every time I think of it, I want that CA ahead of my name, Its worth the pain. YA, still is !

It still doesn’t work, Go Hug someone who makes your life happy and eat on some nice food. Life is gonna be a bliss !

Life is not about the guy you had to let go of or the exam you flunked or the fight with parents (FYI – its kind-da her mistake, most of the times).. It’s about ME! – writing this hoping, God! Is she gonna think I still have it in me? :/

Kidding, Life is about the butterflies before meeting him and the cant-let-go-of stupid smile.. Is about the Book shopping and trying on new food thanks to it, It’s about my writing ka keeda during exams and mostly its bout you and the smile right now.

I just realized I have not written anything in sync with my title :p or have I ?

Uhh.. Ok So ya.. to my past 25 years.. Gosh , Cheers !! You have been awesome and I am Blessed. To my next 25 years. Watch out, we are gonna have some crazy fun , coz I have miles to go before I sleep …

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Smile More. Laugh often. Love Always !

Love,
Miss S.

Shayari..

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Sham bhi thi dhuan dhuan, Ishq bhi tha udas udas…

Dil ko kai kahaniyan yaad si ake rah gayeen…

Smile More. Laugh often. Love Always !

Love,
Miss S.

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