Secretive Writer

Random Ramblings .. I write.. I live… I love..



P for Paint Brush #AtoZChallenge

I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn’t show.
I’m so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you’ll do – that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I’m afraid I might lose you.

I’d like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you’ll be patient and close your eyes,
I’ll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love Me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.

I need to save my paint brush, though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
In case somebody doesn’t understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paint brush with me
Until I love me, too.


O for Optimism & obstacles.. #AtoZChallenge

“It’s no use having light if you don’t open the curtains.”  said Saanjh pulling up the curtains. The sunrays beamed and touched Kavya’s room and lit it up.. Kavya looked at Saanjh and though to herself ” It’s so easy for Saanjh to say all this optimistic lines.. she’s always had it all so easy.. she s slim and confident.. she ll get any guy.. unlike the fatty me.. Sameer left me.. what issues does she have in life.. her perfect life..” Disrupted by a pat on the shoulder from Saanjh..”Kavya.. let’s go out.. It’s a beautiful day!” Saanjh wanted to cheer up her l’il friend.. Saanjh took her for lunch to Kavya’s favourite restaurant.. ordered her favourite food.. and still not a single smile appeared on Kavya’s face.. “Kavya, i know it’s difficult.. but you can’t let all this take away your life.. I am not saying its ok.. i am saying.. It will be” “Saanjh.. It’s easier said then done.. you say you understand, you don’t .. you don’t know what is it to be dumped by the boy who you loved.. to be all be heartbroken” Saanjh grinned ” Actually I do.. When I was your age.. You ended a two-month relationship.. I was through an end of a two-year old relationship without even a goodbye.. I saw him moving on to another girl without even ending it with me.. I made friends with his girl and lived my pain for days.. but you know what.. five years later.. IT got over.. cause I believed it will.. Cause I have believed that it is the darkest before the dawn.. Cause everything becomes okay by the end..” “And now I have a messed up life.. I love someone and my parents are set to get me married to someone I hate…” “What.. How .. why ?” Kavya was stunned.. “Dont worry!  i still think it will be okay.. I will be happy.. sooner or later! So you see my life isn’t perfect.. but then I know it will get will be okay” A light was dawning in Kavya’s head. Life had handed Saanjh some pretty pathetic cards too, but her secret was in how she dealt with them. Her curtains were always open. Kavya hugged Saanjh and wiped the tears. Saanjh smiled through the tears, like she had always done..and Kavya promised herself to keep the Curtains open..No matter what the weather she was determined not to miss out on those sunny days. #Optimism

L for Love Letters #AtoZChallenge

L for Love Letters #AtoZChallenge.

A to Z Challenge.. K – Kevin Doyle (27 Dresses)#AtoZChallenge

We all have been in love with some or the other move character at a point of time. My love – Kevin Doyle from the Rom-Com ’27 Dresses’. He is my kindda guy..HE IS MY Guy!

Blunt.. Witty.. Brooding Eyes.. Self-made.. Caring(he gives her a blackberry so she doesn’t have to carry her FiloFax’..Awe)…  Writer..(Brownie Points )Human.. Romantic.. the way he looks at her..

“Do you wanna know the real reason why I came here tonight? Because I knew this was going to be hard for you. And for the first time in a really long time I wanted to be there for somebody…. But I want you to know that I think you deserve…I think you deserve more than what you’ve settled for. I do. I think you deserve to be taken care of for a change. I believe that.”

Uh! he is everything that a perfect guy should be.. actually he is more 🙂

C’mon people.. tell me your favorite Movie Character 🙂


P.S A to Z challenge 

Another Tag : 30 Qstns : Me & Him :) #Love

For lack of not being able to go out. For lack of being bored.. We took this stupid 30 Qstns together.. n.. uhmm…it wasn’t that bad 🙂 So Let’s begin.. My Answers / His Answers ————————————————– 1) When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? My hair has grown longer / My hair is looking worst than the last time 2) How much cash do you have in your wallet right now? 800 bucks/ 100 rs n that 1 re coin given by me 3) What’s a word that rhymes with DOOR? Floor / Bore 4) Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? No phone L / A friend called Duggu 5) What is your favorite ring tone on your phone? Ye Dooriyan – Instrumental (Movie : Love Aaj Kal) / Andorid-porn 6)What are you wearing right now? Green Kurti n Jeans / cream color shirt n jeans 7) Label yourself? His / Good-boy (yeah-rite) 8) Name the brand of the shoes you’re currently own? Inc 5 / Nike 9) Bright or Dark Room? mrng – bright room with colors- afternoon onwards – dark room with dim lights / Dark with lots of small colourfull lights 10) What do you think about the person who took this survey with you? him.. i dont like him.. / Shes hot n cute at the same time N I love her more than nythg 11) What does your watch look like? *gabbar style laughter * a simple rectangle dial with black belt / looks like Her (Cheesy) 12) What were you doing at midnight last night? Studying.. sorry.. trying to study/ watching a match on tv 13) What did your last text message you received on your cell say? How r you.. Call me back / me cutting ke liye gaya hu vo 14) What’s a word that you say a lot? Dumb / Hmmmmm 15)Who told you he/she loved you last? He did à / ß She did 16) Last furry thing you touched? Does my hair count? / A colony dog by her name 19) Your favourite age so far 24, It was a very special year. / 21 18) What was the last thing you said to someone? uffffff / broe ho raha hai 19) The last song you listened to? The Readon – Hoobastank / Lean on – Major LAzer 20) Where did you live in 1987? Matunga , Mumbai L (I miss it)* / F-type blocks , parel, mumbai *he sent me a I miss u after readin this.. **blush-blush** 21) Are you jealous of anyone? A l’il of a “friend” of his who gets to spend time with him..n ot her fault / People whose name begins with N.. 22) Is anyone jealous of you? I’m sure there must be few. / May-be 23) Name three things that you have in your bag/with you at all times? Phone / Wallet / My ring / Deo , a book n id card 24) What’s your favourite town/city? Mumbai / Mumbai.. coz I stay here.. cheesy :p 25) When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it? March 2015 , (His b’day) didn’t mail it.. / to a friend, as a kid.. 26) Can you change the oil on a car? Never tried./ No 27) Your first love/big crush: What is the last thing you heard about him/her? You wanna know about the first love or the first crush? Ok I’ll answer both. First love – – The Boy Who called me sugar.. havent spoken to him in a year. / The owner of this blog.. last thing.. she loves me J First Big Crush – – College,Last heard, he’s in Banaglore & happy / dsnt remm Much.. 28) Does anything hurt on your body right now? My head from lack of caffeine. I need a coffee ! / Neck L 29) What is your current desktop picture? Mom-Dad’s picture / 30) Have you been in love? Best part about it ? Yes.. yes.. it makes me look forward to tomorrows.. even in bad times / Yes – The best part is when someone loves u back and thee feeling of being complete 🙂 204709f6fdb000a3241237faf9f901ea (1)

A-Z Challenge : I for If….

If I were a month, I’d be June.. Rains

If I were a day of the week, I’d be Thursday..

If I were a time of day, I’d be 6.30pm.. Suits my name, no?

If I were a season, I’d be Rains..

If I were a planet, I’d be Earth.

If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Dolphin..

If I were a direction, I’d be East.

If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Book-Shelf.

If I were a liquid, I’d be Water

If I were a tree, I’d be a Cherry tree.. A chapter from school 🙂

If I were a tool, I’d be a Nail

If I were an element, I’d be Silver

If I were a gemstone, I’d be Diamond..

If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Guitar

If I were a color, I’d be White

If I were a emotion, I’d be Happiness

If I were a fruit, I’d be an Mango

If I were a sound, I’d be the sound of wind chimes/bells in the distance.

If I were a car, I’d be a Jaguar

If I were food, I’d be Pani-Puri for me & cheese for Him

If I were a taste, I’d be Spicy-Tangy

If I were a scent, I’d be Floral

If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be Stilettos

And if I were a bird, I’d be an Eagle..

……….go it’s your turn to give it a shot!

A to Z Challenge.. H – Him !

Him !



Hesitant (Always)


Hot (Ahem :p)



Husband  **



(He’s my Chandler)

**Would-be , Should-be (Courtesy : Goofy’s Barney)

P.S A to Z challenge 

Song 4 : From the Heart (OST – Notting Hill)

I know you’ve heard these words a hundred other times before
And you’ve been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart and brought you lies
Look in my eyes
You’ll see a love that’s deep and true
Tender and strong and all for you
You can trust this love
Honest, that’s the honest truth
From the heart
I’m giving you everything, everything
From the heart
I promise you that I’ll be there
I’ll be there to love you
From the soul
I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel is
From the heart, from the heart
I will protect you and respect you and be all you need
And when you reach for love you’ll only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down
They’re staying around
I’ll walk with you through every storm
I’ll keep you safe, I’ll keep you warm
And you’ll have no doubt
You’re the one I’m living for
From the heart (from the heart baby)
I’m giving you everything (oh) everything (giving you everything)
From the heart (my heart)
I promise you that I’ll be there (I’ll be there for you)
I’ll be there to love you
From the soul
I’m showing you all I feel, all I feel (I’m showing you)
All I feel (all I feel) is
From the heart, from the heart (from the heart)
I’ll provide the love you need
Just trust my touch
Believe in me
I’ll never make you cry
Givin’ all I got with all I got inside
From the heart
I’m giving you everything, everything (giving you everything)
From the heart (from my heart)
I promise you that I’ll be there (I’ll be there to love you, love you, ooh)
I’ll be there to love you (ohh)
From the soul (my soul)
I’m showing you all I feel (all I feel) all I feel (all I feel) is
From the heart (the heart) from the heart
Ooh, from the heart, from the heart.

A to Z Challenge.. G – gREY’S aNATOMY

I sometimes wonder why I like Grey’s. Why do I go mad watching Grey’s Anatomy when it actually makes me weep at the end of almost every episode? People come up with the most absurd sicknesses. People die. People leave. George (:() , Izzie are no longer in the show but I still go ahead and watch it. Does it distract me from what’s going on in my life or what?

No, it’s more than a mere distraction. I’m completely in love with every character in the show. I love the way Shonda has crafted them. So well thought of, so real. Like when Yang says she wishes she wanted a child but she knows she doesn’t how much ever she tries, I understand that feeling. And when Meredith says that she can’t draw the line between right and wrong, I start nodding like a freak.

Every episode leaves me with something. Every episode has a takeaway. And the best episodes are those that turn out to be creepily similar to what’s happening in your life. If not the situations, the emotions – something that just clicks.

They should make a book of Grey’s quotes. And that shall be my bible.


P.S A to Z challenge 

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