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Pack your bags and leave !!

I am not hinting at any upcoming vacation plan of mine nor am I pushing my brain to make a plan for one.

Weekend usually gives a lot of time to think over matters which you have been pushing under the carpet over the past week or may some more time than that. And I am not talking about the chores to be done. I mean matters that are intangible in presence but very tangible in effect.  Matters of heart, so to say. (Weekend does that to me..over-thinker me).. And when there is some time at hand, mind does wander off. To far off places. To prohibited areas. To long forgotten landscapes.

On this unusually lazy weekend I decided to chuck everything and just BE ! I watched TV, some movies, some sitcoms and read a book. Also lied on the sofa just listening to the music. And that’s when my mind also wandered (like it never does otherwise!! Huh!). A trip down memory lane happened and you never come out of it chirpy, do you?

I realized there is so much clutter or baggage that we carry, some of it even unintentionally. We know we have to get rid of the aching memories or avoid falling in the same pit, but it takes time and may be somewhere we don’t want to do it. And honestly, if we take it all seriously, it is lethal. So why bear it in the first place or for so long?

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Acknowledging that i have been holding on to things for way too long, I resolved its time. It’s time to let it all leave my system for good. So why not tell that agonizing pain or that scar from a healed wound…Pack your bags and leave!!!

Yes, it is only that easy and that much difficult. We can either let it simmer inside us every single moment or let it out of our system once and for all.

And these are what I am talking about:

  • That love story gone awry
  • That friend who turned his back when you needed him/her the most
  • The decision that took you to a wrong direction in your career/personal life
  • The unfulfilled romance/ unrequited love
  • The hurt you have been nursing long after that person has gone
  • The promise that was never kept
  • The expectation that never got met
  • The tears that have now dried up but potent enough to give you a sleepless night
  • The relations that were once close and now are a sorry distant sight
  • Those people in your everyday life who do not deserve any bandwidth from you but end up getting the maximum attention

This doesn’t sound very simple but I am sure this is how you get rid of something that refuses to leave on its own. You have to show it the right door to leave and close that door behind it, forever.

So whenever you find yourself fighting with one such monster in your head, look in its eye confidently and tell him, yes you know that by now, ‘pack your bags and leave!’  🙂

Oh well, as I was busy saying goodbyes to some such monsters, I realized it was time to bring some nice positive and tangible change. Hence the new look of this blog. Tell me what you think of it.

Lots of Love and Happiness !!

Stay Blessed 🙂

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A Crappy post with a messed up head..

URGHHHHH !!

I wanna take out all my frustration, and nobody knows who I am here.. so might as well I can do it here.. its a crappy post.. save yourself if you are not into reading “My Bad DAy- My Bad Life”

I just realized that this blog has become my escape.. everything going so wrong and I run to this blog and I write and within moments I am Me again..

I sit at the window.. I see people on Tv.. I look around.. I see people who have a smooth life.. Yes, I KNOW THE GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE ! but still, inspite of everything wrong, there’ll be something that is going right for them..

For instance..Have a screwed up love life but then they are doing good in thier academics or in their job..

A screwed up job, then they have someone they love.. a family where parents are understanding..

You know just something that is fine..

But here I am, sitting in a room all alone.. and I don’t know if I wanna have a tomorrow ..(yeah, very depressing.. not my style)

I mean am staring at the mirror.. all I see iS ME..ALONE.. yes i am the modern independent woman who can be on her own but what if I don’t want that..

I want a happy relationship.. My “him” loves me a lot and so do I.. but the circumstances we are in.. My expectation level and stupid-ness has crossed all limits.. He so doesn’t deserve that.. He is 22.. This should be his best relationship.. the happy-mushy one.. I am making him live my problems which are so old for him.. he doesn’t deserve it.. I have stupid fights with him, where the poor soul keeps listening to my crap.. He doesn’t deserve this..

I am sooper mad at Mr. God. I have always believed he is my best friend. that you know he’ll support me in everything.. He is pushing me away from my family.. my him.. my job.. my life.. everything.. He is not fair..

I hate the fact that I have always believed that he does everything for a reason and for some sick reason, a part of me still believes that this is the darkest moment before the dawn fills my life with my happiness and sunshine.. I hate when I get that optimistic.. cause Mr. God can’t even see that.. he throws situations at me wherein all the optimism is flushed out of my system.. (Gross! )

My family.. they taught me that never let people dominate you.. always have a brain of yourself.. blah.. and now just cause I don’t agree with them over something important.. all of these traits are an issue.. Too much brains you use.. etc..I mean C’mon these people are my life and with them behaving the way they do.. I can’t stand a moment living in the same room..

URGHHHHHHHHHHH

I am bored.. I am hyper.. I am not in the correct state of the mind..

I need to get away.. even from myself.. to become the Me that I was..

I want him to hug me and put me to sleep till all this turns into a distant bad dream.. I want him to hold my hand and fight with the world.. I want him to not let me be.. I want peace and freedom !!f

L for Love Letters #AtoZChallenge

L for Love Letters #AtoZChallenge.

L for Love Letters #AtoZChallenge

Love letters.. my favorite way of communication…  How I wish people would still send hand written letters to the person they love.. Magic !

anyways.. I came across this video.

Watch this video and put yourself in place of this old man, who found an incomplete letter written by him to his wife. He decides to complete it and during theprocess regrets having not formed enough memories with his beloved wife, who’s no more in this world.

Are you making beautiful memories with your loved one? If not, wake up and do it now.

If you have someone you love enough to want to see their face every morning… tell them.. before its too late.. write a Love Letter ! (cause i don’t know about diamonds. but love-letters are forever)

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This is a Submission for A-Z Challenge

SONG OF THE DAY : “My Heart Will Go On” (OST : Titanic )

By Celine Dion

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Every night in my dreams

I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you’re here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we’re gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we’ll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you’re here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You’re here, there’s nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We’ll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on…

J for Jealous #AtoZChallenge

Jealous

And I admit that
I feel jealous of every girl 
That talks to you even for a single second
I feel jealous of every girl 
That makes you feel special even for a single second
I feel jealous of every girl
Who mattered to you even for a single second
I am jealous of every girl 
That hugged you even for a single second
‘Coz for that one second,
She had the feel of my entire world
‘Coz of that one second,
My whole world revolved around her
But as they say, if you dare to fall in love
Jealousy is surely the first casualty

Submission for A-Z Challenge

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There’s this thing I used to do when I was a kid, to my mom’s VCR. I’d take it apart piece by piece then put it back together again. But inevitably there was always a piece or two left over. Something I didn’t quite know what to do with. So what do you do with that piece? Do you try to fit it back in? Do you try to make it work? Or do you decide you can live without that missing piece?

When we go without certain things for long enough, it’s easy to forget just how much we need them. We forget what we had once, we forget what it’s like to live with a thing. Not that we need but we want. That’s why it’s so important for us to remind ourselves, for us to remember, just because we can live without something doesn’t mean we have to.

– Grey’s Anatomy

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All Favourite Things

As per the blog I came across today, I am to list my favorite things with respect to the prompts.

  1. Place – Anywhere with my loved ones. Marine Drive
  2. Person – Goofy
  3. Color – White and Black.
  4.  Food – Pizza and Pani-Puri..
  5. Drink – Mostly Coke, sometimes Vodka
  6. Smell – The smell of rain, books, Lilies and Him.
  7.  Book – Doctors by Erich Segal
  8. Movie – Love Aaj Kal
  9. Sitcom – Friends
  10. Music artist – A.R.Rehman  
  11. Hangout – Marine Drive / Sea Face
  12. Thing to do when bored – Blogging / Watch Sitcoms/Movies
  13. Genre of literature – Personal Ramblings
  14. Magazine –  Tinkle. 😛
  15. Texture –Soft chiffon
  16. Festival – Holi
  17. Time of day – Evenings
  18. Day of the week – Thursady
  19. Thing to learn about – People.
  20. Thing about yourself – Patience
  21. Song I never skip – Currently, Tu mera humdard hai 🙂
  22. Place I wanna stay : New York / Himachal Pradesh
  23. Wedding Dream: With Him in Babulnath/Shore Temple.
  24. Fascination : Photo Frames

If you like this activity, you may list your favorite meme too. Do leave a link or comment so that I could read about your favorites too. 🙂

All Favourite Things

As per the blog I came across today, I am to list my favorite things with respect to the prompts.

  1. Place – Anywhere with my loved ones. Marine Drive
  2. Person – Goofy
  3. Color – White and Black.
  4.  Food – Pizza and Pani-Puri..
  5. Drink – Mostly Coke, sometimes Vodka
  6. Smell – The smell of rain, books, Lilies and Him.
  7.  Book – Doctors by Erich Segal
  8. Movie – Love Aaj Kal
  9. Sitcom – Friends
  10. Music artist – A.R.Rehman  
  11. Hangout – Marine Drive / Sea Face
  12. Thing to do when bored – Blogging / Watch Sitcoms/Movies
  13. Genre of literature – Personal Ramblings
  14. Magazine –  Tinkle. 😛
  15. Texture –Soft chiffon
  16. Festival – Holi
  17. Time of day – Evenings
  18. Day of the week – Thursady
  19. Thing to learn about – People.
  20. Thing about yourself – Patience
  21. Song I never skip – Currently, Tu mera humdard hai 🙂
  22. Place I wanna stay : New York / Himachal Pradesh
  23. Wedding Dream: With Him in Babulnath/Shore Temple.
  24. Fascination : Photo Frames

If you like this activity, you may list your favorite meme too. Do leave a link or comment so that I could read about your favorites too. 🙂

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